The dark side of creating

That feeling when self doubt starts to kick in and you ask yourself if you’re crazy.

"Am I crazy?"

Anyone who’s ever created must have come here at least once. If not hundreds of times.

The struggle with the thing you’re trying to solve, create, express wraps you in a thin film that dulls the world around you.

It affects your ability to enjoy, to fully take in your present experience. It’s not just active while working. It seems to find a way to wrap you even while taking breaks.

"Am I lost. How lost am I?"

Lean into it. Breath into it.

It’s an almost inexplicable feeling that in a way nods to your current state of consciousness. Being alive. You can only be here if you are alive.

"Is it really this hard or is there something wrong with me?"

I’m here right now so I thought I’d try and capture it.